Hellooooo :]
I am once again writing back - as promised - on Tuesday since i'm at work. Today's a special day because tomorrow is my birthday!! I know, it's very exciting. You know what's weird? As you get older birthdays get less and less exciting. It's like the week before my birthday i'm super pumped. And then when it acutally comes..i'm pretty mello about it. However i LOVE balloons, and Belly and Ant brought me one to work as my happy early birthday gift :] Did i mention i have the best friends in the world?
In commemeration of my birthday i have a very big story for you today. It's recent, and my most juicy story yet because it's kind of the climax of my stories. Not that they're not all amazing, but this one...well you'll see.
Mike Posner's Cheated becomes my new favorite song.
(Long Title, i'm aware)
So. Let's take this back to seventh grade. In seventh grade, end of the year i went to a friends birthday party in june. There i met this guy, let's call him Thomas. Instantly i thought he was GORGEOUS and loved him. He lived in a different town but this particular town would go to the same high school as us. So imagine my joy when i walked into class my first day of freshman year and find out this guy sits by me. I spent the entire first quarter watching him from afar wishing he was mine. Then like fate he and i get paried up as partners. I was thrilled. I spend LITERALLY 8 months pining after him, always liking him and wishing he and i would date. And after those eight long months of working hard to get him to like me back he finally cracked. He asked me out. We were together a year and a half. I'm not going to give you all the details of our relationship - because they don't matter. This isn't a love story, even though i can honestly say i loved him. So when six months ago he broke up with me, i can honestly say he broke my heart. It's hard for me to admit that - i have a pretty though exterior but it's true. The saddest part is i saw it coming, it's like in the weeks before we broke up i was just waiting for it to happen. It's pathetic because god knows i never would have broken up with him. So when he did it - i cracked. I literally collapsed on the spot. Its ridiculous, i know, but i didn't know how to go on without him. I have my own way of coping with situations like that, i remove myself. The whole "let's just be friends" bull shit doesn't work on me, let's face it, he doesn't want to be friends. By breaking up with me he asked me to remove myself from his life - which is what i did. I'd like to be one of those girls thats all happy the next day and totally fine with being friends but thats not realistic. You're the douche bag that broke my heart. I can't ever talk to you again. I can't look past what you did - nor can i be friends with someone that made me cry for a straight five months. It's never going to happen - and he doesnt care. For any of you out there who are going through a tough time with a break up, heres my advice: Enjoy it. Spend time with your friends, flirt, do things you couldn't do when you had a boyfriend. Eat tons of ice cream & LISTEN TO BREAK UP SONGS. That is my number one therapy. Hence mike posners "cheated" it is the perfect song for a break up, also on my list are the following:
--Fuck You by CeeLo
--Till I Forget About You by Big Time Rush
--Worth the Wait by Lights out Dancing
--F*** You by Lily Allen
and basically the other typical break up songs that i'm sure you can find on your own and then the pick me up songs really help too.
I know that wasn't very detailed - but i felt it was necessary to tell you about Thomas. Because he's changed who i am forever, and he will always be a part of me because of what he did.
Peace Love & Birthdays.
-RadicalBaby
